*i'm not looking for any advice but if any1 has anything to say, please do so*
as ya'll know, i'm engaged. i'm not sure if i'm going to get married or not though. things have been rocky between me and my fiance. last night, we got into a fight and she said, "i dont want to lie to u anymore... i dont want to be with u... i dont like u... ur not my type." i ignored the "ur not my type part" but everything else opened my eyes. now logic vs emotions... she might have said all that because she was mad at me but i sometimes believe she really means it. i replied, "then move out, get ur shit and leave." she said, "u could be a good man and let me stay for the night." i let her stay, we fucked, and all of a sudden, we're back together to try to make things work. now i'm at work and i just called her to give an ultimatum... i told her if she wants to be with me then cool but if not then move out. she told me she'll stay with me because she has nowhere else to go. i told her, "i dont want either of us to get hurt so make up ur mind now. she said she'll stay. i responded with, "i hope its for the right reasons then" and hung up.
i think its best to let her go instead of forcing her in a relationship and i feel bad for her because if i let her go, she wont have a place to stay. since i'm me... i'm willing to put my balls to the wall and try to make things work... faith is all i'm clinging to now