So, me, tristan, solace, and aquity roll up to purgatory thursday night. I was a bit nervous going in, but I opened probably about 6 sets. A couple of em went good, but then I run out of steam and I eject. I need to start staying in there. So, I think I did good for my first club game, I opened, and it felt ok, two or three weeks ago I was too afraid to open day game, so I guess its an improvement. But I feel like shit, I feel like a failure. Why? Well, on my way to the club a girl from college I have been trying to hang out with forever texts me and wants to hang out, I tell her I am going to purgatory and proceed to be a needy. I think I blew it with this chick. And tonight, tonight at purgatory everyone pulled a girl or two to the second floor hookah but me. I couldn't get em to hook. I couldn't get any to come with me to the second floor. It just makes you feel like you're never going to improve. I am scared of turning into dream (he supposedly had a few thousand approaches and like 3 lays), being an approach artist and never going any further, never being able to close. So, to wrap up what happened tonight, I blew it with a hot girl from school and got no closes from the club tonight. Let's hope I get my shit straightened out sooner rather than later. Fuck, now I'm going to bed all depressed n shit.
I guess I should start looking at the more positive aspects of things...