Dallas PUA

a.) fuck you marie. fyi that's my ex girlfriend who got me in this community by cheating on me with that fucking douschebag asshole luke. we were supposed to get married and be happy in afc land forever, now i got to deal with this bullshit bar crap. now i've got something to prove. my true long term goal is and has always been to get someone better than marie. but no matter how hard I try, it never feels right. and i haven't fallen in love yet.

bitch called me tonight to tell me she's upset that luke hasn't asked her to marry her although they've been living together for the past few months...blah blah, and she has feelings for one of my close friends but doesn't know what to do. Thanks. really. totally needed THAT. sadistic fucking bitch! what did i do to her to deserve that besides try to move on and ignore her?? I hung up but what's the use? damage is done.

b.) most of you guys are technically knowing what you're doing but some of you don't really have much of a heart inside and that's why you struggle with some of this. Well i struggle for other reasons maybe.

99% of you don't know me, and you don't know what LOVE is. that's right i said "love" on a pickup foreum and i'm not talking chode talk. a lot of this PUA shit sounds so ROBOTIC to me. i can't explain it if you don't know the feeling. being in love is 100% more better than getting laid. if you can't understand that, i don't envy you.


c.) it's 5 am. gotta get to work at 8. haha yeah sure.


d.) quit assuming i'm good at pickup. i already said i'm intermediate. shut the fuck up and quit asking me for advice. bull run and PC are good, along with other dudes like Vector and Finesse. call them.


e.) i'm here to get good, not to make buddies. i want someone to fall for again, and i need the skills to get to the point where i feel like i've done better than marie and i can let her go. i like everyone on here a lot and i don't want to say that i don't, but my sole motivation is to heal what was fucked up by my ex. once that happens i'm happy to be friends with every one of you regardless of how "good" you are at pickup. i'm not here to judge you or to be an asshole. i have to keep it straight in my own head that i'm here for me.

Sometimes it feels good to fuck around and that makes me forget. But in the end, it's still really damn empty. Really damn empty.


f.) I HATE cops....i hate the law. fuck the law. i break it every single goddamn day. fuck cops chasing you around town. fuck jail.


g.) i will very likely die before i am 30. damn i almost died tonight. guess what? don't give a fuck. kind of disappointed in a weird way which scares me somewhat. oh well, i guess.


h.) i have a death wish. but if i die it can only be in a ball of fucking flames and glory. and it has to make marie cry.


k.) i met my hated enemy kite tonight at black finn, he showed up from austin. with my friends. oh boy. (ps if you didn't hear about my enemy, don't worry about it) and to top it all off, that fucker pulled one of the girls we all tried to talk to. fucking her right now. that little fucker is a better pua than i am. God fucking hates me, and is trying to fuck me over. I'm about ready to say fuck it... WTF else can i do besides try??? I've already more than been brought to my fucking knees again and again by my fucking girlfriend ex and my fucking frustrating inability to fill that gap.

l.) hard to find a cheeseburger at 5am, but i did.


m.) bull run is my best friend on this board, but wtf telling a set of girls that i walked away from "oh he doesn't know how to talk to girls." ok man, well you're still one of the most if not the most sincere people on this board and i got ton of respect for you because of that. you did what you needed to do. hell i'm probably getting to that point right about now as well and to be fair i guess i really was being a dickhead to them.


m.) FUCK I HATE ME SOMETIMES. I'm gonna be on the boards for a while, until i find myself. until I can redeem my ass. fuck.


n.) alphabets suck. fuck off :)
good night.

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a.) fuck you marie. fyi that's my ex girlfriend who got me in this community by cheating on me with that fucking douschebag asshole luke. we were supposed to get married and be happy in afc land forever, now i got to deal with this bullshit bar crap. now i've got something to prove. my true long term goal is and has always been to get someone better than marie. but no matter how hard I try, it never feels right. and i haven't fallen in love yet.

bitch called me tonight to tell me she's upset that luke hasn't asked her to marry her although they've been living together for the past few months...blah blah, and she has feelings for one of my close friends but doesn't know what to do. Thanks. really. totally needed THAT. sadistic fucking bitch! what did i do to her to deserve that besides try to move on and ignore her?? I hung up but what's the use? damage is done.

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You'll find that right one, and most likely it will probably come when you aren't even trying. I hear that same fucked up emotional bullshit from my ex too. All women are fucked in the head, some to lesser degrees than others.

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b.) most of you guys are technically knowing what you're doing but some of you don't really have much of a heart inside and that's why you struggle with some of this. Well i struggle for other reasons maybe.

99% of you don't know me, and you don't know what LOVE is. that's right i said "love" on a pickup foreum and i'm not talking chode talk. a lot of this PUA shit sounds so ROBOTIC to me. i can't explain it if you don't know the feeling. being in love is 100% more better than getting laid. if you can't understand that, i don't envy you.

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Well stated.

[quote1219759869=grimm1111]m.) bull run is my best friend on this board, but wtf telling a set of girls that i walked away from "oh he doesn't know how to talk to girls." ok man, well you're still one of the most if not the most sincere people on this board and i got ton of respect for you because of that. you did what you needed to do. hell i'm probably getting to that point right about now as well and to be fair i guess i really was being a dickhead to them.[/quote1219759869]

Hey bro, you know me man. I say some of the most off-the-wall shit from time to time. It absolutely WAS a joke. I'm sorry if you thought otherwise.

You missed the other half of that conversation though. You were drunk as shit and those girls started talking shit about you and I defended the FUCK out of you man and ALWAYS will.

As a matter of fact, the ferocity of my defensive of you blew me out. I just didn't want to get up from the table because I was comfortable.

Listen man, I think your perspective is refreshing.

I read all of these posts from guys, hear their stories and I think to myself does anyone here have a heart?

I understand where you're coming from and know where you want to be because I'm exactly the same way.

I want to meet a chick that is amazing, that I want to fight for, that inspires me to be a better man, that challenges me to BE a MAN. But, all of this shit, all of what we're going through right now is required to get us to the point where we can be that man. To the point where we can meet said amazing chick and still be strong enough to understand and realize that she's not replaceable but she can be replaced. Does that make sense?

BTW, you're a funny bastard. I literally laughed out loud when I read your shit this morning...at least the parts that were funny.

Don't worry bro, it'll all come together.

Listen man, I know how you feel. I helped my last girlfriend study for business school, helped her with the entire process, helped with the essays, the tests, the applications, even paid some fees for her, then she got accepted to Indiana University (for marketing and it's one of the best for that in the country), then I drove a fucking Uhaul to Bloomington and pretty much single handedly loaded and unloaded the truck. I visited her ONCE and while I was there I KNEW she had met someone else and I KNEW who he was, of course she didn't TELL me. She just led me along. Then she came to visit for Christmas. I got ONE day with her, ONE. On Christmas day, I actually left Christmas dinner with my family and drove 4 hours to Houston to surprise her and tell her how much I love her and how much I want to be with her...she said she needed time, I knew it was over. SO, I drove back to Dallas. Got home around 5AM.

I didn't talk to her for an ENTIRE fucking month, then she called me to tell me that she's in love with someone else but she still wants to be friends. I told her that I needed time to work that out...haven't spoken to her since, a year and a half later...

I feel like I taught her how to fly and she flew out of my life.

But, you move on bro. And, the Community can help with that...sometimes in order to do this shit having a heart is a liability. But, the guys here that don't have a heart will always be here, eventually you'll move on.

Anyway man, I'm sorry that you thought I was shitting on you last night. I wasn't, you just heard the wrong part of a two part conversation.

Hang in there bro!!!

I love a great rant post... Grimm I don't really know you but feel I know you a lot better now...

I have totally been in your shoes man... completely in love with the person you think you'll spend the rest of your life with then she cheats on you and sticks a dagger in your heart... i've been where you are all I can say is it gets better with time but don't expect it to completely go away... i still have a hole in my heart from mine 13 years ago now and every woman i meet is ultimately compared to her... anyone i ever get seriously involved will have to live up to me feeling about her like i felt about mine... and if you've seen me mention how much i love asians... well guess who was asian.

you've got the right idea as far as making sure the person you find is as good as her... i made the mistake of settling because I didn't think I'd ever find anyone I felt the same way about and paid for it with an 8 year marriage that was doomed from the start.

You sound a lot like me the first 6 months or so after my breakup.... it does get better... ultimately you have to let go of a lot of the anger but until then it is a FANTASTIC motivator to make positive lifestyle changes. Have you had post-breakup sex with her yet? That shit is great too ;)

you're grieving man... a breakup like that it's like the person you were meant to be with died because what you had did... these emotions and feelings are natural, but don't let them consume you -- there is more to life than that and you have more value than that and ultimately you'll find that again with someone who appreciates it more than she did... or at least that's what I'm hoping in my case ;)

like you i'm not really here to just try and bang as many chicks as possible... ultimately it's to get the girl who i feel the same way about and keep her

nice to see a fellow lawbreaker on here. I live by my own code too :>

I fucking hate the cops too.
I've been married, two kids, divorced, two dwi's, 3 jobs, and in and out of debt and I'm only fucking 26. My point, I'm happier now than I've ever been. It's not only the community that did it but fuck being here is better than 20 self-help books from ex ceo's.
Everyone is here for their own reason. You're right, some dont know what they're here for some know exactly what for.
Only thing I can say to you man, and honestly I've only met you once, is that if you're here to become a better man as you say you are then you're in the right place. If you're here to learn the perfect way to exact revenge then none of this shit will ever be fulfilling enough.
Good luck on your journey. Remember everyone here has there own testimony. We can build off each others or ignore them chalking it up to internet rhetoric.
Howie and Justice have some heartbreaking stories. Their stories in one way or another have helped me develop my own reasons for being here.
We are here to help. Even if it's by means of some virtual board.

I hate girls... I hate what they are, but I love their outer shell. That is... their body. LOL

thanks guys i appreciate it. and yeah it is kind of funny in retrospect but kind of fucked up too - last night after i left the bar i got chased by the cops and somehow evaded them and survived it and got away untouched. i slept in a field for a while under a big fucking tree. i was really hammered, and i mean really hammered.

no girl is worth that shit i know that.

God damn u pussy whipped mother fuckers, why u gettin all emotional on me? This ain't fuckin Oprah we don't need some gay ass group hug or do we? lmao. You foolz are alright!

Silvermouth- thats cool as shit laying it all out there like you did.

Dude, grimm u have my respect for getting away from cops... Only person sucessfully escaped from cops is my father. You're the 2nd person I know who got away from cops unharmed.