Pickup Journal [March 14-March 25, 2005]
Posted: Mon Aug 01, 2011 11:35 pmMonday, March 14, 2005
I’ve been going back and forth with women through the internet. A lot of leads, I think I have done away with 5 or 6 in the last few days based on the idea that I have been rushing for a meeting, I think this makes them feel uncomfortable. I need to find a better way to pace it.
Today is the first day of my new life.
Now observe how I’m feeling today. It’s a strange thing indeed the way I have let anything affect me. I record it now to see how much I progress.
This weekend, I felt so confident and sure of myself in regards to meeting and dating new women. It was easy and natural. I was at the sweat lodge this weekend, and frankly as it seemed almost every one of the girls desired me. The one I would have chosen was raising her sexual state when we were in the same room alone together. She served me. I felt like really hot shit, with a tight body, and a sexy attitude.
Today, based on those above occurrences afterwards, I feel like I forgot about any ability I had with women (check last Saturday)—and feel somewhat discouraged.
Now since that flake, the minuscule occurrence with the HB Little P, and some random internet girl not wanting to see me, I feel down. It’s strange to let minor things affect me. I will gently and beautifully change this undesired aspect of myself, and manifest myself again.
I’ll feel what I will. Endure, and try, try, and try again. I learned that I am able to attract women that I am attracted to and get them to the point of wanting to hang out with me quite easily. I still have much to learn and master.
It was only one flake, but I have allowed my emotion to be affected by this. This feeling will go away, and my motivation to get this area of my life mastered will remain. The cool thing about me is that I will toil on through discouragement and find myself a winner of the things and circumstances that I want in life.
One step at a time; this is all a part of this journey. This feeling is allowing me to grow on with myself. The greater amount of times I fail the greater amount of success I will experience.
Life is too short, and there are way too many attractive women in my city to let the actions of any one affect the way I’m feeling. I am a powerful, loving, and attractive man and women love me for it.
Sunday, March 20, 2005
I went to the mall to brush up on my skills today. I opened maybe 5 actual sets. I feel like I am pretty good at opening sets, but I need to improve the attraction phase. I feel like there needs to be some kind of conversation that will demonstrate high value…
I don’t really like diving into lame everyday…so where you go to school? Yada-yada bullshit.
There has to be someway to carry from the initial opening, demonstrate attractiveness and get them pursuing me.
Monday, March 23, 2005
So today I decide to TXT message Hobbin with something like this:
“I didn’t mean to be an ahole. Can you forgive me? I still think we would make good friends.”
No response.
Then later, I was at the book store checking out a book and she see’s me, we meet eyes, and she comes over to me, I give her a one armed side hug.
I said “You must of thought I was a big asshole.” She denied it, and somehow went away.
Then I found her in the store, and kept it up…”You must of thought I was an asshole…this and that…I must have hurt you’re feelings.” She denied it and said that she has a tendency to just disappear. I could tell that she was doing whatever she could to get the power. Then she said something like this “You weren’t an asshole, but why won’t you ever tell me where we’re going?”
I guess that was part of the flake after all. Maybe she just felt uncomfortable not knowing where we we’re headed. Too bad. She wants to hang; she’ll have to deal with it.
Anyway, I walked away, and she was like …uh bye…
Then I came back, and told her I was going to be in the café. I did my own thing, doing my accounting homework, and after a while she came over there to tell me she just wanted to say bye.
Again, I mentioned, that she thought I was an asshole and just didn’t want to admit it. I told her that I knew part of her was really digging on me, and I must have hurt her feelings or something for the flake. Anyway, I quickly ended it and said Ok well have fun! And gave her a high five.
As she was walking away she said “Maybe we’ll talk sometime…”
I did not acknowledge this, and continued my work.
Then later, as I was leaving the book store I get a text message from her:
“You weren’t an asshole, are we ever going to hang out?”
This seemed like a test to me. I replied with:
“Flakiness won’t fly. You’ll have to make it up to me to hang.”
To which she replied:
“What can I do? I’m usually loyal to my word. I’m sorry.”
I was busy doing something else, so I didn’t see this message for a while, and she sent another one:
“I still owe you a smoothie.”
I replied to her message as follows:
“You can start by getting me some Mi Cocina.”
To which she replied:
“Haha. Alright. U pick when. U are so smooth.”
And that’s where I left it. If I do decide to call or write her, I think it will be after a long while. I’ll give her the gift of being unsure. Dang, what is there to learn here?
What did I do well?
I did not accept her flakiness, and moved on. I stayed cool and composed with some laughter thrown in. When she asked to hang out, I told her she would have to make it up to me.
What would I have done differently?
I don’t know if it was good to go over to her in the bookstore or not. It looks that it proved good. I still ended the convo pretty quick, but I think I would have more readily ended the conversation when I went to find her—right when she was laughing.
Friday, March 25, 2005
So last night after I was done working out, I called this good looking (8) 31 year old accountant who I met at Hot or Not, and got her worked up to the point of offering to come and see me from Arlington.
I told her I would call her and let her know. Today I called her and told her I would be busy.
Anyway, I woke up at about 9:30 today and decided to go look at foreclosure properties. While I was driving on the road, I noticed a girl hitchhiking. I stopped and asked her where she was trying to go and ended up giving her a ride. She was pretty stupid. She said she was going to California, but she hopped in anyway. I turned up the heat, and she ended up blowing me. Then I hugged her and we parted peacefully.
I can’t believe that crazy shit. I felt nuts for just letting some random chick blow me like that. She wasn’t all that hot probably stretching it for me to call her a 6. Anyway, it felt good, but afterwards I reminded myself that I can and do pull much hotter chicks than that. I think my energy is better used with hotter women who are more in line with my pulling ability (7-10’s.) I don’t care how easy the sexual adventure is, I think I should set and maintain some standards for who I will let be with me sexually. The challenges are more fun anyway!
Later I decided to go out to the Al Amir night club. I never set any goal before going, I just wanted to check out the place. And because I never set any goal, or had any idea of what I wanted to accomplish I made maybe 2 approaches total throughout the couple of hours I was there.
I walked into the place and stood with good solid posture while observing the dance floor, I was getting a lot of women looking again and again on every dance floor I would show up at(there are 3), yet for some reason I was not moved to go and do anything about it.
One girl with her 2 girl friends was wearing what looked to be a workout shirt, I approached her in a quieter area and asked her if she just got back from the gym. She playfully said Shut up to which I had no good reply. I plowed through it and told her a story about a friend making me a vegetarian sandwich. The Kino was immediate, and I was holding both her arms together against her side, in a way I knew she liked. I busted on her again for something and she playfully slapped me. Then instead of a back turn or a slap back, I just playfully tightened my grip and told her she just lost 2 points. She said so?, and then turned back to her friends. This is the kind of girl who is used to being pursued by guys, and I had a strong feeling she expected me to continue. I back turned and left her there.
What did I do well?
I approached a girl who is more in line with my physical standards. I told a story. I did immediate Kino.
What would I have done differently?
I probably would have gotten her friends involved first, and paid little attention to the objective. I would have told a story or two which displayed value instead of some random nothing story. I would have probably responded to the slapping shit test with a playful slap back to her.
And on another note, I must remember to not attempt conversations with women in loud areas where it may be difficult to hear each other. This is lame and tends to achieve nothing. If in a loud area, and you are getting IOIs practice up on your physical and body language game.
Also on other dance floors, I had a group of girls who noticed me and started to draw closer until they were in my space. I had a bit of the jerk come out again, and told them to stay out of my dance floor space. There are better ways to initiate these women who obviously have a great desire to be near me and want to know me better.
What did I do well?
I stood confidently and with good posture on the dance floor to the point where many women noticed me and started sending out approach invitations.
What would I have done differently?
I would have probably gotten closer in proximity with the women who wanted to be near me. Held hands and done a dance or two with them.
Sticking point: I have some hesitation to do dance floor game one one on one with a girl. The lack of confidence comes from the unsubstantial amount of times you have actually attempted this process. If you need to crash and burn a few times until you’re skill and finesse is obviously polished and shining, do it.
I’ve been going back and forth with women through the internet. A lot of leads, I think I have done away with 5 or 6 in the last few days based on the idea that I have been rushing for a meeting, I think this makes them feel uncomfortable. I need to find a better way to pace it.
Today is the first day of my new life.
Now observe how I’m feeling today. It’s a strange thing indeed the way I have let anything affect me. I record it now to see how much I progress.
This weekend, I felt so confident and sure of myself in regards to meeting and dating new women. It was easy and natural. I was at the sweat lodge this weekend, and frankly as it seemed almost every one of the girls desired me. The one I would have chosen was raising her sexual state when we were in the same room alone together. She served me. I felt like really hot shit, with a tight body, and a sexy attitude.
Today, based on those above occurrences afterwards, I feel like I forgot about any ability I had with women (check last Saturday)—and feel somewhat discouraged.
Now since that flake, the minuscule occurrence with the HB Little P, and some random internet girl not wanting to see me, I feel down. It’s strange to let minor things affect me. I will gently and beautifully change this undesired aspect of myself, and manifest myself again.
I’ll feel what I will. Endure, and try, try, and try again. I learned that I am able to attract women that I am attracted to and get them to the point of wanting to hang out with me quite easily. I still have much to learn and master.
It was only one flake, but I have allowed my emotion to be affected by this. This feeling will go away, and my motivation to get this area of my life mastered will remain. The cool thing about me is that I will toil on through discouragement and find myself a winner of the things and circumstances that I want in life.
One step at a time; this is all a part of this journey. This feeling is allowing me to grow on with myself. The greater amount of times I fail the greater amount of success I will experience.
Life is too short, and there are way too many attractive women in my city to let the actions of any one affect the way I’m feeling. I am a powerful, loving, and attractive man and women love me for it.
Sunday, March 20, 2005
I went to the mall to brush up on my skills today. I opened maybe 5 actual sets. I feel like I am pretty good at opening sets, but I need to improve the attraction phase. I feel like there needs to be some kind of conversation that will demonstrate high value…
I don’t really like diving into lame everyday…so where you go to school? Yada-yada bullshit.
There has to be someway to carry from the initial opening, demonstrate attractiveness and get them pursuing me.
Monday, March 23, 2005
So today I decide to TXT message Hobbin with something like this:
“I didn’t mean to be an ahole. Can you forgive me? I still think we would make good friends.”
No response.
Then later, I was at the book store checking out a book and she see’s me, we meet eyes, and she comes over to me, I give her a one armed side hug.
I said “You must of thought I was a big asshole.” She denied it, and somehow went away.
Then I found her in the store, and kept it up…”You must of thought I was an asshole…this and that…I must have hurt you’re feelings.” She denied it and said that she has a tendency to just disappear. I could tell that she was doing whatever she could to get the power. Then she said something like this “You weren’t an asshole, but why won’t you ever tell me where we’re going?”
I guess that was part of the flake after all. Maybe she just felt uncomfortable not knowing where we we’re headed. Too bad. She wants to hang; she’ll have to deal with it.
Anyway, I walked away, and she was like …uh bye…
Then I came back, and told her I was going to be in the café. I did my own thing, doing my accounting homework, and after a while she came over there to tell me she just wanted to say bye.
Again, I mentioned, that she thought I was an asshole and just didn’t want to admit it. I told her that I knew part of her was really digging on me, and I must have hurt her feelings or something for the flake. Anyway, I quickly ended it and said Ok well have fun! And gave her a high five.
As she was walking away she said “Maybe we’ll talk sometime…”
I did not acknowledge this, and continued my work.
Then later, as I was leaving the book store I get a text message from her:
“You weren’t an asshole, are we ever going to hang out?”
This seemed like a test to me. I replied with:
“Flakiness won’t fly. You’ll have to make it up to me to hang.”
To which she replied:
“What can I do? I’m usually loyal to my word. I’m sorry.”
I was busy doing something else, so I didn’t see this message for a while, and she sent another one:
“I still owe you a smoothie.”
I replied to her message as follows:
“You can start by getting me some Mi Cocina.”
To which she replied:
“Haha. Alright. U pick when. U are so smooth.”
And that’s where I left it. If I do decide to call or write her, I think it will be after a long while. I’ll give her the gift of being unsure. Dang, what is there to learn here?
What did I do well?
I did not accept her flakiness, and moved on. I stayed cool and composed with some laughter thrown in. When she asked to hang out, I told her she would have to make it up to me.
What would I have done differently?
I don’t know if it was good to go over to her in the bookstore or not. It looks that it proved good. I still ended the convo pretty quick, but I think I would have more readily ended the conversation when I went to find her—right when she was laughing.
Friday, March 25, 2005
So last night after I was done working out, I called this good looking (8) 31 year old accountant who I met at Hot or Not, and got her worked up to the point of offering to come and see me from Arlington.
I told her I would call her and let her know. Today I called her and told her I would be busy.
Anyway, I woke up at about 9:30 today and decided to go look at foreclosure properties. While I was driving on the road, I noticed a girl hitchhiking. I stopped and asked her where she was trying to go and ended up giving her a ride. She was pretty stupid. She said she was going to California, but she hopped in anyway. I turned up the heat, and she ended up blowing me. Then I hugged her and we parted peacefully.
I can’t believe that crazy shit. I felt nuts for just letting some random chick blow me like that. She wasn’t all that hot probably stretching it for me to call her a 6. Anyway, it felt good, but afterwards I reminded myself that I can and do pull much hotter chicks than that. I think my energy is better used with hotter women who are more in line with my pulling ability (7-10’s.) I don’t care how easy the sexual adventure is, I think I should set and maintain some standards for who I will let be with me sexually. The challenges are more fun anyway!
Later I decided to go out to the Al Amir night club. I never set any goal before going, I just wanted to check out the place. And because I never set any goal, or had any idea of what I wanted to accomplish I made maybe 2 approaches total throughout the couple of hours I was there.
I walked into the place and stood with good solid posture while observing the dance floor, I was getting a lot of women looking again and again on every dance floor I would show up at(there are 3), yet for some reason I was not moved to go and do anything about it.
One girl with her 2 girl friends was wearing what looked to be a workout shirt, I approached her in a quieter area and asked her if she just got back from the gym. She playfully said Shut up to which I had no good reply. I plowed through it and told her a story about a friend making me a vegetarian sandwich. The Kino was immediate, and I was holding both her arms together against her side, in a way I knew she liked. I busted on her again for something and she playfully slapped me. Then instead of a back turn or a slap back, I just playfully tightened my grip and told her she just lost 2 points. She said so?, and then turned back to her friends. This is the kind of girl who is used to being pursued by guys, and I had a strong feeling she expected me to continue. I back turned and left her there.
What did I do well?
I approached a girl who is more in line with my physical standards. I told a story. I did immediate Kino.
What would I have done differently?
I probably would have gotten her friends involved first, and paid little attention to the objective. I would have told a story or two which displayed value instead of some random nothing story. I would have probably responded to the slapping shit test with a playful slap back to her.
And on another note, I must remember to not attempt conversations with women in loud areas where it may be difficult to hear each other. This is lame and tends to achieve nothing. If in a loud area, and you are getting IOIs practice up on your physical and body language game.
Also on other dance floors, I had a group of girls who noticed me and started to draw closer until they were in my space. I had a bit of the jerk come out again, and told them to stay out of my dance floor space. There are better ways to initiate these women who obviously have a great desire to be near me and want to know me better.
What did I do well?
I stood confidently and with good posture on the dance floor to the point where many women noticed me and started sending out approach invitations.
What would I have done differently?
I would have probably gotten closer in proximity with the women who wanted to be near me. Held hands and done a dance or two with them.
Sticking point: I have some hesitation to do dance floor game one one on one with a girl. The lack of confidence comes from the unsubstantial amount of times you have actually attempted this process. If you need to crash and burn a few times until you’re skill and finesse is obviously polished and shining, do it.