FR: I'm Beginning to Internalize

[Bull Run]

After the El Topo speech, I went sarging on Lower Greenville with a handful of wings (PicturePerfect, Smirks, and two others whose handles I don't know/remember). That night I had a little bit too much to drink and, apparently, blacked out between the hours of 10pm and midnight. The next day I received a text from an unrecognized number: "I'm not working today. Do you still want to hang out today?" Ummm, sure I guess. This was a HUGE gamble, because I genuinely did not remember this girl. So, I called her and we set up a place to meet and watch the NFC Championship. I purposefully picked a venue that would not be super crowded and provided me a great vantage point to see everyone walking into the bar. When I saw her, I decided to go ahead and check it out. Truth be told, I just wanted to know what it was that I said to her, while I was completely shit faced. The fact that she was an HB 7.5 was just the icing on the cake.

So, I play it cool. Never tipping my hand that I don't remember anything about her. Shit, I didn't remember her name. I had to make friends with the bartender to get him to introduce himself to her before I actually found out her name. Anyway, we got to talking about what it was that I did and said that allowed me to pick her up. My opener? "So, are you tabbing out or writing down your phone number?" She told me that she laughed and then turned her back to me but I continued to talk with her. I plowed ahead, always.

Anyway, she went on to describe my game to me. This was an amazing conversation and incredibly enlightening. Mainly because I feel that if I'm saying the EXACT same types of things to her while I'm completely shit-faced as I would say while I'm sober then that means I've internalized a HUGE portion of my game. 'Game' is a bad word because it sounds like I've contrived all of this, like it's a plan. I realize now that it's becoming a part of me, it is controlling and defining my actions and words. I feel this to be a really big epiphany. This is a break through.

So, how did the night turn out? She invited me back to her place and then gave me a lot of LMR. I handled it like a pro by acting as if I didn't really care that I wasn't going to get laid. When she said no, I'd freeze her out. Eventually, she gave in. Later in the evening she told me why she wanted to have sex with me. The reason? You know this already, but it was because I acted as if I didn't care…check out the response of most guys:

HB: "We're NOT going to have sex tonight."

AFC: "What? Why not?"

HB's Thought Bubble: Because I don't like men that grovel, you pathetic loser.

And of the PUA:

HB: "We're NOT going to have sex tonight."

PUA: "Ok, so do you have anything to drink?"

HB's Thought Bubble: Wow, he doesn't want me? Why? I'm hot, he should want me. I want him, he's going to want me too.

I joined the community to further solidify my natural ability to be social. Before now I had to force myself to be open and social with others, now being social is just something I do as force of habit.

Internalize.

PS: I ended up crashing at her place but she kept me awake with her constant snoring. So, I decided to sneak out in the middle of the night. After I collected all of my things, I went to the front door and as I opened it her fucking alarm sounded. She was not happy...

[Smirks]

My opener? "So, are you tabbing out or writing down your phone number?" She told me that she laughed and then turned her back to me but I continued to talk with her. I plowed ahead, always.

I gave that opener to ya...you're welcome bra!

I knew you were shit can hammered that night, but I didn't know it was THAT bad. You handled it well. o.0

Next PUA meeting we'll discuss disarming of alarms for the sneak out! haha

[Tribulus1000]

Bad ass Bro!
Nice LR.

[PicturePerfect]

Was this before or after we destroyed the hooters waitress till a near suicide. lol

[Smirks]

PP -

This was SAturday...you destroyed that girl's hopes and dreams on Sunday.

[Bull Run]

PP -

This was SAturday...you destroyed that girl's hopes and dreams on Sunday.

Met her Saturday then F-closed her Sunday, after we inadverently destroyed the Hooter chick's self-esteem.

[PicturePerfect]

lol good times though eh