I'm turning 23 this Sep 23... so it's almost 23 years I've been a virgin. (I'm still 22, so it counts as losing a virginity at 22 lol)
I've been talking to this cute girl outside of state. We've been texting and eventually started to talk on the phone.
She and I decided to meet up in Dallas area hotel on 15th which is today.
let me just tell you one thang... I was terrible at sex!! OMG dudes in porn makes it so easy to fuck a girl and make them happy. I had no idea what the fuck I was doing even though I watched countless porns. It was totally different just watching and actually doing. I feel fuckin terrible coz this girl is a hottie!! I felt lucky, but my lack of skill was not a good thang. I made so many mistakes and I couldn't even find an entrance on my own. She had to guide my penis... You guys were so right about fuckin less attractive girls at first then slowly move onto hott girls with experiences. I feel so fuckin terrible. Oh and I guess condom desenstized me or something, I kept on getting soft during sex. While I was inside her, it didn't feel as good as I thought it would. Her vagina was so tight, it was hurting my penis. I kept tryin to force her to swallow and do anal, but she wouldn't give it up. I guess it was my mistake to keep tryin to push her to do these thangs.
When I lose my virginity, I was expecting to have flowers blossom all over the room and stars are shiney on the roof. Flowers fallin and beautiful song would play... but sex felt like a work. I mean I loved making out with her, touching her, suckin on her breasts, and such (btw, she has a C-cup natural... such a nice breasts!!!). I just had no idea what to do. I feel so terrible for such a terrible sex. I think towards end, I somehow hurt her little bit while I fingered her. She said it was ok, but I feel really shitty now coz of that. We did talk about her coming back to Texas to get with me and such, but after all this terrible shit I doubt she would come back.
Anyways my virginity has been lost just like that. Part of me regrets having sex, but the other part of me loved it. I donno why. I need to stop jackin off to porns and such coz porns give u an idea that sex is so easy. I really need to learn and practice to get better at it. Next time, I don't want to be so terrible... btw, she wasn't good at oral sex... and you guys were right!! Hot girls are bad at blowjobs. They don't even try very hard. I mean it felt good but she wasn't really tryin and wouldn't suck for long at all.
I am wondering if u guys know what I can do to improve my sex skillz. I need all the help I can get!!!
(btw, even though, I sucked at sex soooo bad, she was really wet. I mean how is it even possible?
She said I was good for a virgin, but I doubt she is telling the truth. She did have unusually nice personality for a hot girl though.
Anyways this is my babble bout my first sex and how terrible I was at sex. I really need help!! please guys!!
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So we started to play "strip chess" Of course, she lost and I got her butt naked.
She tells me it's not fair that I have all my cloth on, but she is naked. I even the odds then it just went from there.
I was gettin tired fast from sex coz I couldn't get any sleep last night becasue I knew I was gonna have sex with her. I was so excited, I couldn't sleep til 5 am and woke up around 8 am. I went straight to her after small breakfast. Of course, I was tired before sex and sex wasn't good. We went at it for a while then we decided to go eat. It was first time, I was gettin so much attention from dudes coz of HER. Everywhere I went, even like 60 year old dudes were checkin her out. I just couldn't believe how much she was into me. I mean she has really nice breasts and butt. (altho she was insecure bout her butt... I don't even know why) She is beautiful. I just felt lucky. At the restaurant, she was the hot spot from all the employees. I mean these dudes were obviously checkin her out. For the first time, I felt really threatened by other guys. I loved it when she didn't make me pay for whole thing. I paid 20 and she paid bout 8 dollars. She tells me she hates it when guys have to pay for everything.
We were so stuffed that we decided to go to the mall to walk it off.
Of course... I was getting eyes from everywhere... I mean every single guys. I felt like I was obliged to protect her or something. We browsed quite a bit then went off to hotel. We took a little nap (i think it was mistake that i initiated to take a nap for a bit coz she got all sleepy from it lol) We still went at it in a dark. Anyways towards the end, I somehow hurt her with my finger. I feel like a douche for that. She has to wake up early tomorrow to catch the plane. So she was goin to sleep. I will just pack and go so she can go to sleep. She insisted that she stay up and say good bye to me. I left. I feel so sorry for her for terrible sex... I feel so bad!!! :(