maenad wrote:Yeah, I am. I'm going to be really straight forward with you. I know you and me did not get along over at DallasLair. I honestly don't care to have enemies, so if you want to call it a truce and say fuck it to the past. I am willing to seize fire with the negativity. Cool with you?
I know Gunslinger very well and consider him to be a truly wonderful and great friend. Without speaking for you Gunslinger, which you know I would never do because of our mutual respect, I will say that I'm pretty certain that Maenad's willingness to take the initiative and bury the hatchet means that Maenad has learned a lot since he first broached the PU scene.
Maenad, what you said above I greet with a lot of respect. Good for you. I know I'm probably not a big deal in your life or important to you in any way, but I want you to know that I'm proud of you. The Maenad from 6 months ago would never have said what you did. The 'old' Maenad would have percieved it at an attack, today you see it as an opportunity to make ammends and find some common ground. That means that you've progressed so much on your journey. Good for you my friend. Good for you.
I understand your frustration, truly I do. But, keep this in mind. The guys that actually get good at PU are the guys that never stop. They never waiver. They never capitulate. They never stop climbing the mountain of self-improvement. Life will always be frustrating. You can always do better. But, make sure that you take a little time to look back on where you came from and what you have now. The key to happiness to is to be grateful for what you have...the key to growth is to know that what you have can be better.
You have the latter down pat, but the former is lost on you right now. Pick-up is a process my friend. It takes time. The man you where is not the man you are now. That doesn't mean that you're flawed or brokend in any way. Instead, look at is as opportunity. You have the chance to mold yourself into someone else, someone better. You're a clean slate. Forget the past and start to mold youreself into the man you want to be, the man that you deserve to be. You'll never be what you were, but you can be better than you've ever been.
I can tell you're on the right path. Don't give up, don't get frustrated. The point of PU isn't to bed women. That part is easy. The point of PU is to forge yourself into the man that you truly are, the man that resides within, the man that you've alwys been meant to be. Be patient, you're making way more progress than even you know.
Faith is important. Have some faith in you...