losing my self-reliance
The Problem
I started getting into reading and watching about the game about a year ago. But ever since I started I havent really done anything...made any 'real' progress...I actually feel like i might be fucking cursed or something...its soooo peculiar...one minute this girl is into me with no 'real' mistakes made...and the next minute..poof...the sexual tension and attraction has left the room. It has happened on numerous occasions and cant seem to figure out why, but the one thing i do know is this...once i start REALLY applying this material i now have stored in my brain...my dream will then come true...but thats where my real dilema pops up...I live with my parents...im 23, and a college student...now im not saying that i care about my perception of looking like a loser, its not that at all..what i lost is my self-reliance. I know some of yall read Mystery Method but i know most of yall will know what im talking about when i say 'Survival values & Replication values'...the most essential values a man can have...Now, i was in the US Navy for the last 4 years...it was the best experience in my life..i feel that now because it defined who i am today, and that is because i was self-reliant...i depended on myself to be phsyical and mentally strong and i felt i did a very good job especially the shit i had to endure...I got out 10 months ago, and ever since then its been a dicline in happiness...self-discpline...self reliance, and pretty much back into the lifestyle i had before I enlist. i feel like a teenager again...and i dont like it AT ALL...i hated it when i was a teenager...i was a loser then, and im cool with saying that cause i made peace with it once i made the right decison in going into the military...so thats i feel now, a 23 year old teenager..going to college, living at my parents house...oh and i forgot to tell you...i totaled my 2002 Lexus IS 300 last month
The Solution
Well...i feel that the reason why i dont sarge and be the person i want to be is because i lost my self-reliance and no longer in survival mode..i am now reliant on my parents..which internally makes me feel like a teenager again...which kills my inner game, so what i need to do now is save $5000 and have a job while going to school to justify me moving out and getting my own place. I feel once this happens...and my survival mode kicks in..and am now self-reliant like i once was in California...i will actually feel like a man again, and finally sarge with yall...peace out and watch out for IKE!
I started getting into reading and watching about the game about a year ago. But ever since I started I havent really done anything...made any 'real' progress...I actually feel like i might be fucking cursed or something...its soooo peculiar...one minute this girl is into me with no 'real' mistakes made...and the next minute..poof...the sexual tension and attraction has left the room. It has happened on numerous occasions and cant seem to figure out why, but the one thing i do know is this...once i start REALLY applying this material i now have stored in my brain...my dream will then come true...but thats where my real dilema pops up...I live with my parents...im 23, and a college student...now im not saying that i care about my perception of looking like a loser, its not that at all..what i lost is my self-reliance. I know some of yall read Mystery Method but i know most of yall will know what im talking about when i say 'Survival values & Replication values'...the most essential values a man can have...Now, i was in the US Navy for the last 4 years...it was the best experience in my life..i feel that now because it defined who i am today, and that is because i was self-reliant...i depended on myself to be phsyical and mentally strong and i felt i did a very good job especially the shit i had to endure...I got out 10 months ago, and ever since then its been a dicline in happiness...self-discpline...self reliance, and pretty much back into the lifestyle i had before I enlist. i feel like a teenager again...and i dont like it AT ALL...i hated it when i was a teenager...i was a loser then, and im cool with saying that cause i made peace with it once i made the right decison in going into the military...so thats i feel now, a 23 year old teenager..going to college, living at my parents house...oh and i forgot to tell you...i totaled my 2002 Lexus IS 300 last month
The Solution
Well...i feel that the reason why i dont sarge and be the person i want to be is because i lost my self-reliance and no longer in survival mode..i am now reliant on my parents..which internally makes me feel like a teenager again...which kills my inner game, so what i need to do now is save $5000 and have a job while going to school to justify me moving out and getting my own place. I feel once this happens...and my survival mode kicks in..and am now self-reliant like i once was in California...i will actually feel like a man again, and finally sarge with yall...peace out and watch out for IKE!