as some of you might know my previous sticking point was ejecting too early and running out of things too say.Well I actually took care of that issue once and for all. Now I have another 3 sticking points:
1)Self-Doubt.I dont get much AA anymore.But when it comes to gaming 9s and 10 tens my mind keeps fucking with me.I think that after another year or so I will get over it completely. I keep thinking that they are out of my league.all those negative loop are almost gone.Just one more year.For some damn reason I get a little shy when I want to apporach a set of 8-10 people. I dont know why, it is weird.
2)Motivation. This one I am writing to just get it out and kill it. When I first started out I was motivated and that was the single greates contributor to my sucess. now I lost it for some odd reason. I feel like sarging has become a job instead of a fun hobby.My love for the game has been gone for about a month or so but now its coming back.
3)No lair. Heh this one is big.Most of my friends dont go out and I end up going out by myself and at same time I have to be sober. Sometiems that is great for my game( you know that feeling when you get out of the car and you KNOW that you OWN the place? YEAHHH!), sometimes I choke.
I just want some advice on some of theese issues. I am sure tha some of you have dealt with them in the past.Oh man it feels good to let that shit out :)
