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My life is basically the following:

Wake up at 6:40. Go to school until 6 p.m. Go home. Now it's maybe 6:30 and I'm in the same situation every day. I'm 18 *been PUA for around 2 1/2 years* and go to an all-boys college prep high school.

I have a goal to f-close 4 more high school girls before I go to college because honestly this is the last time they will ever be legal and I'm in the community so I better be able to make this shit work.

I've had maybe 13 relationships in my life, and the reason I joined the community came from my 4th girlfriend. I'm 16 and we had been dating for 4 1/2 months but all she wants to do is vigorously make out in her massive isolated movie room. I try to feel her up on occasion but she rejects me time and time again. Eventually, I get fed up and tell her I'm leaving, but then something amazing happened... She told me "one more make out", slowly pushed my hand up under her shirt, and boom.

This confused the fuck out of me. I turned my back and she invited me back in and advanced the situation. I couldn't ask her about it because I wanted to keep using this tactic to get her to eventually sleep with me lol. It never happened. I was so pissed because I couldn't figure out what I had done right to get to that next level before, and I wanted her so badly. So guess what happens...

Soon, I'm looking online for routines to get women turned on and wanting to have sex, and then I stumble upon THE COMMUNITY. Oh shit, my life changed drastically. I began to read into what she was thinking, how to trigger reactions in her that would advance my cause, but nothing worked. I later learned it was just the girl (she had gone so far as to sign a pact with her friends that she'd never go past 2nd base with a guy, holy shit!).

Girlfriend after girlfriend goes by, but I end up cheating on them because the shit I learned worked too well for high school lol. The girls all found out I was a "man-whore" and spread the word that I cheated. Now my sister school is basically off limits for me at this point for this reason. I felt my cheating was my fault, which it totally is, but I took the blame so far as to actually hate women. I hated how they let me do all this shit to them and not figure out the consequences. I hated how I always had to be in control and know my limits and my boundaries and draw all the lines and completely dictate the situation.

This led me to AFC-ville pretty fucking quickly. Since I realized that I had to draw all the lines, I basically began to get into the community so I could understand where A GIRL WOULD WANT THE LINES TO BE DRAWN and then I basically underwent massive toiling and trouble to accommodate these needs for my new girlfriends. Basically, I used my routines to build attraction and comfort, but I'd be a total pussy and try to always please them and would let them get away with shit so they'd be happy and put up with bitchy behavior so I could get sex.

I completely ditched myself and my own feelings because I basically constantly crave sex. I'm only 18, fuck off =). So my next couple of girlfriends tooled me so hard that I not only did not get pussy for maybe a year, but I even went so far as to pick a girl up a 3 AM when she called me out of the blue only for her to break up with me because "I never even cared." Maybe this was true, I thought. Maybe I really don't care about girls and all I want is sex and all these tactics, tricks, routines, lines, and articles I'm reading all just help me get sex, not the girl. Talk about a total mind-fuck.

For a while, I lost total confidence in myself. My view of self-worth was totally fucked up because I thought I used girls for sex and didn't care about them as people. This seemed logical to me because I cheated on so many (maybe 3 girlfriends, so I had cheated on 6 girls total). But then I realized I can't blame myself for being so damn good at this that I get multiple women at once. This was my first paradigm-shift. I'm not a man-whore or a womanizer, it's the opposite. I love women so much, but I also love sex and my hormones usually take over.

Now, I'm 18, and I just got out of a LTR with the girl that took my V-card (I turned her down maybe 4 times before we actually did it). I can't game my sister school anymore due to my Playa-rep, and school/wrestling practice take up so much of my day that I feel like I can't find time to sarge or game.

There are two scenarios in my head to meet my goal of 4 f-closes:
1) Just finishing up school without thinking much about girls, but building up my social skills with guys and networking for the future. Gaming in the summer and racking up the points there...

2) Game after I get home. Maybe lose sleep, maybe my grades drop a little. Get girls during the school-year and the summer, constantly improving my game. Problems with this scenario, because it is clearly so much better, are my parents and myself. Most nights I don't really feel the energy or motivation to game because I'm so tired from practice, but I really enjoy reading about it and learning more and more from articles. My parents might not be OK with me leaving until midnight on every weeknight.

So that's my story and my future plans. I look forward to some feedback about which path might be best. =)

I fucking love the game.