Fuck it

[Guest]

I thought I was motivated before. Well, I was wrong.

I just went out with an ex of mine who I really believed I had no feelings for anymore.

Now she's wanting to hook up again with one of my old best friends. It's amazing how this can change your perspective. I feel like shit, like the worst I've felt in a long time. Interestingly she's done this before but I didn't feel a thing then. And now I'm all fucked up.

I never thought I'd feel this way about her ever again, but I do. So I'm going to cut it right now before it gets any worse. I wish this shit doesn't work out this way, we're actually on very good terms and I enjoy being around her. By the way, to those of you who know me, yes it is who you're thinking of.

In any case, now I'm ridiculously motivated. Goals: 10 sets tomorrow at least and 3 number closes. I know that's not a lot for many of you but it's pretty ambitious for me. Longer term goals: 20 sets a week, CONSISTENT. Hell, I'll even open in front of everyone at work if need be. Call me out on it.

The easiest way for a person to change is for him to first be hurt. Well, I think it's time for me to change.

Thank you, ********.

[Guest]

Immediate actions:
- uninstall Counterstrike 1.6. Fuck that game. It's gotten me so much less ass than I know what to do with. I'll now be reading when normally I'd be playing CS.
- renewed effort into finding more good, reliable wings.
- constant reminders of my motivation. What are some things you can do to keep an emotion strong in your head?
- SETS, SETS, SETS. I will conquer myself and master this shit STARTING NOW. Fuck AA, I'm going to become an opening machine.

Sorry if I seem a bit manic, but I'm in some sort of a mood right now. Although this feeling will pass eventually, I want myself this motivated every day. In a way, it's a blessing - a tazer to my ass that forces me to jump out of the quicksand of mediocrity.

I am going to do this.

[Guest]

Acuity what you have lined out is a really good plan. Yeah I used to live my life behind a computer screen. I can tell you while playing games is fun you will really waste a lot of your life away.

There is no doubt finding good wings helps a lot.

I feel that you will be motivated for a while. Until you start getting a lot of success you will have this motivation in your head. The easiest way to get over this girl is to start seeing other girls. Ecspecially if they are way better looking.

Wow you have AA? Man the time I saw you I didn't notice that at all. You would walk up to anyone and open. If you never open you never close.

[Guest]

Acuity, I love how you reframed the entire situation that would make most people depressed for a week or more into a positive. It is true that the painful events are what leads us to improve. Keep at it!

[Guest]

Good Luck Acuity.

In the past, I turned down sex for America's Army and Starcraft.
The only way for me to quit was to uninstall. I was a Fking Loser.

Discontent leads to change.

[Guest]

Rock on Acuity!

Yea I used to have gamer issues as well I eventually just had to give up playing those types of games because they just suck too much time out of your life... fun if you don't care if you have a social life, get laid, etc.. but if you care about those things kinda hard ;)

You definitely shouldn't have AA -- i've seen you approach and you've got the makings to be a total player with some experience

Imager I used to be a total america's army guy.. that game rocks ;) i'm a total pipeline whore in that game

[Guest]

hey man sorry i could go out with you tonight, but if you wanna make some plans to day game just let me know. im ALWAYS down for that, if im not working =D

[Guest]

Haha Justice.... I was beta when AA started. I was hooked on Weapons Cache SE. I was one of the first few member in the Sith clan. Heck in one game I killed 6 enemies all in the 3rd floor by myself. I was a freaking Addict. what a loser way to waste time.

[Guest]

Thanks guys. It turns out that I have not accomplished my objective for yesterday, but that's fine. I broke my month-long hiatus from cold approaching (with a REALLY REALLY bad set - like my worst ever haha) and felt really good afterwards.

I get no approach anxiety after a few approaches, it's just the first few every day that sucks. I'm keeping a log of how many cold approaches I've done. I hear it takes like 300 or so to reduce AA to manageable levels. I've probably done like 50-75 in my life, so I have a while to go.

I did uninstall CS and believe me, it's turning out well. Today I felt like playing but instead did something productive. Hell, it's like an extra hour every day to do whatever I want.