i hate these, but they're necessary i suppose. lesse, who am i...... Well, i think first and foremost i should start with why i am here. Like so many others with the same story, i'm tired of being stuck as a "friend", i'm tired of being an outsider to the world, and i want to let go of the pain of the past.
I've struggled alot just to get to this point. I was out of shape so i became a bodybuilder, i was akward and socially unintelligent so i did what i could to fix that. But even after coming so far, i discover that i'm still not getting laid (or more importantly to me, having connections) and i'm still not fitting in, and, like always, my inner game is complete shit.
Which led me to the community, more or less. i must admit, i secretly believe i can be the next style or mystery. I'm committed to the game, and one day i too would like to teach seminars. Not for the money, but to save people like me from that walled in, sinking, "no way out" feeling of being alone and, quite frankly, angry. I'm 20 yrs old, turning 21 in Dec, and have never felt a purpose in my life until now, maybe my purpose is to help others like me. Though, admittedly, i have quite a ways to go myself.
This isn't self-help, this is war. War on the heart and the mind, and everything else inside us that has held us back.
That's me.