Im new to this forum and to the pua community as well. I have never had any real significant problems getting laid or picking up, however the caliber of woman sometimes leaves something to be desired. I have had a couple 9's but mostly all in the 5-7 range. I cant say that im obsessed with womens looks to an extent that I expect model perfection every time(i like thick girls), but the reality is that I would like to be able to get the hotter ones at will just to know that I could do so.Comfort amongst these types is also a desire for me. Perhaps I have some deep seeded validation and esteem problems that need to be addressed. I have always had some sort of insecurity about my looks that I tend to hide well. In the past.. many girls have admired and commented on my body and looks...but whenever I hear a compliment I tend to disregard it and blow it off as small talk...but at the same time these compliments would come out of the blue mostly.I tend to dwell on the bad stuff. I think one of the reasons I get girls here and there but not at will, mind you...is because I have been a ballroom dance instructor for 11 years and social gatherings cause no fear...I also have quite a few friends and throw some good parties here and there.Most see me as some sort of fun party guy. However running out of shit to say and sitting there looking stupid next to a high value set or 10 will screw me up big time. Sometimes I can fuck up with a 5 just by running out of shit to say. Reading ioi's can be a problem as well...im just not that observant...perhaps the a.d.d. kicking my ass.On a positive note, Im loyal and truly love my friends. I broke up with my last girlfriend because she did not trust me, was jealous and did not want me to hang out with my buddies. I miss her, but I know better and think its normal to feel that way...I believe that change is hard, but with friends and some effort...I think it can work. I am willing to study hard and share... if anyone wants free dance lessons or wants to sarge that scene just hit me up. I will go to work.
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